It was in August 1999 that I first encountered Charles - our first meeting, since he had crossed over into the non-physical realm, in ordinary words, since he had died. (He died in June 1999).

That morning I was sitting in meditation, imagining that I would find a way to meet up with Charles again. As my mind was focused on him, I suddenly saw myself walking up a staircase, while, at the top of the stairs, clouds parted to reveal an open door. I walked in through this door and found myself in a beautiful white temple. And there, in front of me, stood Charles, with open arms, and a big smile. He welcomed me with thoughts, not words, and we sat down together on what seemed like a white marble bench, surrounded by bushes ladened with pink and red roses. We sat quietly close together. Deep feelings flowed through me, of relief, peace, happiness and gratitude.

After that first time, I found that I could return to that state. It seemed to work when I sat in stillness at the same time, six o'clock in the morning.

I had now found a way to communicate with Charles - wow! - and in the next few months I developed this new relationship with him.

There are many books describing what happens to people after 'death' and I have met a number of people who have seen and talked to those who have passed over. The concept was not unfamiliar to me at all. Yet, when it happened to me - when I met Charles in my quiet time of meditation, it filled me with awe and wonder!

I feel immensely grateful that he continues to care for me and for all our family, our friends, and others. I have been through various stages of grief, joy, doubt and disbelief, and wanting to return to the past. Plus, I began to develop an emotional attachment to this new-found way of us being together. Then I had to work on letting go of this attachment, to allow him to proceed freely in his new life. And so on - let me tell you, this path of meditation is like a rollercoaster sometimes! There's the idea that people who meditate are serene, calm and saintly, and they sit in a state of bliss... Oh, if only!! In any event, one thing is sure: my 'new' life with Charles is not boring, it is fun and exciting!

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