Even though three years have passed since Charles released his physical body; and even though I have read umpteen books about what happens to a soul after ‘death’, and even though I have met quite a lot of people who are in communication with loved ones who crossed over - still, I have moments when I fall victim to heavy emotions of grief and loss. For example, one summer morning ...

We met in our usual place, the Turquoise Temple. Charles was peaceful and loving. I was aware that I had experienced moments yesterday of falling back into sadness and grief over his passing. I had even cried. And I asked myself: How long does it take to overcome grief?

Charles said: When you neglect your meditation for several days, your emotional being "forgets" our meetings on the inner level, and your awareness becomes more attached to physical level events. When you maintain your communication with me and others on this inner level, your emotional body stays tuned to these inner events. Use your will power to lift your awareness to this subtle level, daily. You know how to "get there", how to do it. Do it daily. Then you will not perceive the "loss" as real.

To visualize a change can bring about an actual change.
Here is one way to try it out:

This morning I prayed to God, and to Jesus Christ, that I would find a way to change my thinking, my beliefs, my attitude, into a new level of understanding which will speed up my progress and make me a more efficient servant of God.

Usually I visualize myself walking up a set of beautiful golden stairs, to reach a higher level of consciousness. I picture myself reaching a large gate of gold and turquoise (I first saw this gate in a dream in August 1982), entering through the gate and arriving into a large, serene temple, the Temple of the Order of Melchizedek. When I imagine that I enter into their temple, I know that they are aware of the fact that I am reaching out to them, and they welcome me in. Thought creates. By focusing on the idea that I communicate with my teachers, I actually do.

Thus, this particular morning I followed my usual practice and visualized myself entering into the Temple of the Melchizedek Team.

As I entered the temple I was shown a pyramid of Light. It appeared not as solid, but as an energy field. Trusting that my teachers had placed it before me for a reason, I entered this force field.

When I say that I entered, I mean that my consciousness did it. My body remained in its position on my bed. Can’t quite explain it. I’m not trying to sound important, on the contrary, there’s a lot I don’t understand - my attempts at communicating with those on the subtle levels are perhaps at kindergarten level and I am sure that they are shaking their heads quite often, when I mess things up ... lose concentration ...

I stood in the center of the pyramid, trusting it would assist me in changing my attitude and my beliefs. I asked all cells in my body, and all other aspects of my being - mental, emotional, spiritual and any other aspects that may be there - to adjust, and shift, into a higher gear, as it were.

When I invoke such a change, I trust that those who guide me can use this opportunity to help me bring about change. After a while I felt a sense of completion and gave thanks, and left the temple. I thought: Now I will live my life today as if my beliefs and my attitude have shifted.

A few weeks later I was given another invitation to expand my awareness:

Charles met me as soon as I entered the Turquoise Temple. He invited me to join him in creating, with our thoughts, a rose garden. We created a wonderful garden where large rose bushes flowered - bushes with no thorns, just heavily ladened with pink, white and red blooms. We sat down there.

Charles: I’d like to suggest to you that you deepen your level of peace. Recently you have slipped back into feelings of loss. You think: "I still miss you." When you say: "I still miss you", you actually create distance between us. You add one mile of distance with that statement, because before you made the statement we were close. I now ask you to allow yourself a deeper level of inner peace: Be at peace, know that there is no distance between us, neither in time, nor in terms of space.

I remind you that your state of mind affects me. I have accepted you as my student. You asked to be my student. This means that there is a student / teacher relationship between us. If you wish to benefit greatly from this relationship, then it will serve you to let go of those feelings of loss, and open up to a more purified form of love - one that is detached.

Brita: Can I pause and write down what you are telling me?

Charles: Not right now, Brita. First, feel the feeling - feel the peace inside you. Later you can write things down.

I sat up straight, took a deep breath and saw myself releasing my "old" attachment to Charles - even releasing the kind of attachment I had developed in this last year. I saw in myself the way I had built a ‘new’ attachment, to the one who now communicates with me from a nonphysical level.

I prayed: Dear God, help me to release this attachment.

I understood how it can tie up the other person, the object of this attachment-love.

Now I opened myself to a new, detached feeling. It seemed to have a quality of impersonal love. For a moment I felt concerned that I was losing the personal intimacy I’ve had with Charles in the past. Yet, it became clear that letting go of those old patterns may bring me to a point where I can absorb new knowledge and understanding, as I become less focused on my personal needs and circumstances. Charles waited patiently while I tried out the new feelings, trying to get it right!

What comes to me now is: In order for my work to unfold, I now need to let go of my old belief systems and allow a new level of thinking and being. It is not really "new" - the idea is just to more fully express unconditional love, and detachment to my ideas of what is or should be.

Again, in silence I endeavored to feel the new feelings of peace. Deep peace.

I felt I had reached a point of calmness. Suddenly I felt curious and wanted to seize the opportunity to get to know more about Charles: Who is he now?

Brita: Charles, what about you? What do you do these days?

Charles: My path is tremendous.

Brita: Tremendous? Tell me!

Charles: Not right now. Brita, I look forward to seeing you PRACTICE detachment and the other new feelings and attitudes which you have explored now. I thank you for making the effort. Now, we will continue our daily activities, and I invite you to let me go now, while knowing we are still connected. Remember, we are always together. Uplift your mind and heart and embrace a deeper level of cosmic truth, even though you may not fully understand it yet.

Charles seemed more tall and powerful, somehow. He gestured that our communication was complete.

I returned my awareness to the physical room, and began writing down what had taken place.
You’d think that after the experiences above, I would have reached a whole new understanding of the need for us on earth to let our loved ones who have passed on continue on their path without us thinking of them in ways that interferes with their new life. Yet, a couple of months later I was reminded that at times I still plunged back into feelings of grief and loss, even though three years had passed since Charles released his physical body.

Charles: I love you. I will always love you. Do not despair, or think that I will leave you because you believe you might not have fulfilled some expectations. I will be with you throughout this lifetime and beyond. Be at peace.

You have moments when you believe I have "left". Left to go where? I will not leave. We cannot be separate. We are united beyond time, space and dimension. My life is busy, yes. My life is filled with what you would call activity, yes. Yet, through all that activity, the link of love between us remains unbroken. Our oneness is not bound by time or space. We are inseparable. We are not inseparable because we are special or different from other people. We are inseparable because this is the natural state of souls which have come to bond in true love. You are my sweetheart, Brita.

When you believe that I have left, you are dealing with feelings of separation arising from your own self. These feelings stem from being too busy and not taking enough time to center yourself. Purify your feelings each day, through spiritual practice.

I love you. Be at peace.

 
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